Hurry up Daylight savings........

IT is blardy DARK and cold now when I am walking AND I DONT LIKE IT!!!!!

Only another 8km I am getting in extra JUST in case of rain because I am determined NOT too get wet and cold and miserable AT the beginning of the season!!! (Autumn/Winter).

Forgot vital ingredients for spag meatballs so into town straight after walk WHILST grocery shopping SUCH cheap meat and bargins I decided TO SHOP today instead of tomorrow PROBABLY WISE CHOICE, got home whacked crockpot on high CAUSE normally its on at like 7am didnt get it on until 11am!!!! LAST late Tuesday night YAY Ia m a bit over late nights if YA HADN'T guessed!!!

Apart from that had yummy ham and egg lettuce burritos with tomatoe and carrot and NOW heading into shower BEFORE work starts have teacher Aide work tomorrow so that was another reason for a double up of walking ......... and groceries so in hindsight I have saved myself less stress alround..

My neighbour NEARLY lit her fire 2 nights ago and last night I TELL ya we will be lucky to make it thru the next 7 days without the fire I reckon!!!!!

Hope yall doing something nice today.

Ciao

Just a plodder...

Only walked 8km this morning was nice though I HAVE NO JOBS TODAY no LISTS and nadda happening WHAT A FIRST for me eh!

Sunny again and I am going to sunbathe again, lounge around and generally do sweet fanny annie.

Have roast chicken for diner sorted (veges all peeled) green veges all cut I do a platter of everything and just blast it in the microwave with parsley margarine and black pepper for 4 - 6 mins and voila green vege medley done.

I could be gardening I could be doing housework BUT I AREN'T going to ... I have no inclination to do that today for some reason (Friday I did the sheets and change bed thing so I am caught up with washing and ironing etc).

With Easter just looming I will do some gardening over Easter and mow lawns maybe tues/wed and DO our grocery shopping WED so we don't have to venture into TOWN!!!! (I hate Taupo at long weekends and EASTER) it is bedlam WHAT I do love is just mooching in town knowing I don't have to do SPECIFIC jobs in town with the THOUSANDS of others, I can even WALK into town and get picked up as everyone will be here for the racing and I will have people around to at the very least pick me up should I need to.

WE are all looking forward to Easter and the break in ROUTINES will be nice AND the fact school holidays are then starting it is even better YAY no getting up early no rushing no RUNNING around to rugby/badminton/swimming (karate however goes all year round and the only days off is xmas and easter!!).

Samuel rugby coach is organising practices for holidays so that should be interesting ..... hope it all fits in with our plans and my work etc, sure it will. Oh and NO MORE LATE night working YAY!!!!!! Thats even blardy better.

Have a nice day.

Ciao

Walking walking walking....

I walked on Thursday I walked this morning EARLY like 5.30am early I couldn't sleep I walked 12 kms then went back into bed to warm up (well LAY down) and have just surfaced WAS very FRESH this morning BUT the sun is out and it will warm up SO I will lay in the sun probably. Havent heard from up the line, I TEXT'D Jason yesterday evening Howz it going are you settling in ok keeping busy blah blah blah GET BACK "yes" very helpful not! Oh well he is pottering around today fixing someones oven, and says its a hell of a lot warmer over in the BAY lucky bugger.

Have worked walked and whinged all week, have had some restless nights sleeps but managed to have better sleeps last 2 nights (because I put AN EXTRA blanket on the bed AS I think I was cold! I know I was cold!). Or maybe because of the following indiscretion!

Forgot to say when I went to the movies I had a very SMALL one scoop icecream made them find the smallest, AND I SUFFERED for 2 days HEADACHE, INCREDIBLY SORE TUMMY, BLOATED, ABSOLUTELY FOUL WIND (sorry TMI), and no toilet for 2 days then A RESULTING MESS on 3rd day blurrrrrrrrrrrrrk, was a silly mistake and I knew I would pay for it BUT hells bells come on, for 3 afternoons wed, thurs, fri I felt gross and really had no energy and CONTEMPLATED every day going home early and just wanting to LAY down and rest! TODAY I feel mucho better no tummy ache no headache no bloating and suprise surprise no WIND!

WILL walk again tomorrow and then into 10 - 12km walks next week am going to walk every 2nd day and STEP it up a bit and walk 2 SUPER long walks over Easter seen as extra people will be here to act as PICKER uppers If I need to be. And on Easter Monday when everyone is out the RACE TRACK (car) I am going tp walk approx 16km a 11km walk loop from my place then approx 5km walk out to track not sure on that exact distance to track from town BUT its close to that when they drive it I will get someone to measure distance out there and adjust my end accordingly.

And when I arrive at the track there will be hot chocolate and HOT FOOD there for me to carbo load on (oh and my scrummy protein biscuits!!!)...

I am off to have poached eggs and tomatoes on toast.


Have a nice weekend whatever you are doing.....

Ciao

FOOTNOTE about pissy DOG!

I forgot to say I rang the council, they rang me back this morning APPEARS this dog has other indiscretions, he has chased and bitten the postie, rushed a young girl (girl was on road biking learning to ride out with DAD) causing her to crash and fall and injure her hand and knee, RUSHED a mother with pram trying to bite the wheels, IT IS its 4th indiscretion in a month THE OWNERS defence the DOG IS OLD and grumpy well GUESS WHAT SHOOT the fucker (well humanely put down I guess in PC terms for others who need PC reassurance) BEFORE it seriously harms someone OTHER than an adult!!!

NEXT footnote I HAVE NOT HAD BREAKFAST AND I AM NOW PISSY myself!!!!! I have just made myself tuna and pasta BECAUSE I seriously need food, NOW I remember what used to annoy me about this particular male friend, this is how it started.

LAST night I get a text RING ME tonight at 9.30pm at night I of course was at movies, THIS person knew he was in Taupo for a few days and SAYS" oh well YOUR loss on coming out to dinner had you answered we could have all gone out once again you miss out" MY RESPONSE "Get stuffed, you knew you were coming RING ahead and at least forewarn us, I dont generally drop things for other people YOUR no different, however I DO HAVE an organised TIMELINE for my week I could SQUEEZE you in say next week" (I only speak to him in those endearing terms!) BUT in the person to person call he then says no worries AFTER I have finished in the morning WE WILL have breakfast MY DEFINITON of breakfast is any time from 7am - 9.45am!! then it becomes morning tea until 11am THEN IT IS LUNCHTIME from 11.30am until 1pm NOW SO I didnt walk WHICH in hindsight I should have (it is NOW PISSING DOWN with torrential rain! and FREEZING COLD) I am still frozen although NOW headachy from lack of protein and carbs!!! A little better from just having eaten though. I start work in just over an hour and will no doubt get a call or text later (or not as the case normally is with this particular friend, I do use that word loosely here) I always tell him how in the hell you have a successful business is beyond me, he just roars with laughter (we are the same antagonistic personality and banter off each other almost like brother and sister banter makes for VERY heated discussions at times!) He also knows I will tell him is time management sucks the big kumara.

I am now making a peppermint tea TO relieve my headache!

Please be warm tomorrow!

I am walking a 15 km tomorrow DONT care if his lordship is WRITING A CHEQUE for a million dollars HE CAN jolly well wait!

Whilst a charmer he is not, being on time is not one of his greater points, MIND YOU with all the moaning I am doing today I AM SURE as hell not much of a breakfast date or a lunch date person at the moment I WOULDNT want to take me OUT EITHER!!!! AND I look like an eskimo WRAPPED UP too.

End of yesterday.........

Was a washout I worked and then decided to go out for some escapism (for me thats the movies) saw Maos Last Dancer, was a really nice movie but arrived home A: tired B: quite emotional whether thats what movie or combination of tired and sad parts of movie not sure had A ROUGH SLEEP and should be walking BUT I AM awaiting a friend who is taking me out for breakfast NOW I WISH I had gone walking (although it is FREEZING!!), and I wish I had eaten at 6am CAUSE I AM NOW STARVING, and feeling more starving by the second!!! Maybe I should walk so it takes my mind OFF FOOD!!!

We have cloud cover and because of rain yesterday it has caused a COOLING effect it is COLDER NOW than at 6.30am this morning I have just put long sleeve top on with short sleeve top over that and A CARDIGAN I started the morning in a short sleeve t shirt!

I AM COLD because I am tired!!! Thats a given, I WILL HAVE poached eggs for BREAKFAST to protein load AS I CAN feel a crap day coming on otherwise!! I should have turned my electric blanket on last night CAUSE I was cold in bed too!! OH well we live and learn I suppose.

I am going to put my walking gear on and try and do some walking BUT sure as eggs the text IM awaiting will come and that will be that, I should have said I am walking first thing how about 9.30am!!! I do hate waiting for people, he said I have some things to do in the morning then we will have breakfast!!! WELL WHEN cause its fast becoming my MORNING TEA time!!!! lol

GAWD at this rate I will be having a FULL COOKED BREAKFAST christ you dont realise how hungry you are until THE next morning I had dinner at around 6pm last night and have not eaten since (Tuesday for me is Burrito night!) and considering I make my ONE burrito with lettuce leaves as the wrapI havent had carbs since yesterday mid morning!!! I should stop talking about food CAUSE I am making myself worse, off to have DRINK OF WATER!!!!!! (WHOOP WHOOP)...

***UPDATE***

Have eaten one piece of toast with marmite and cherry tomatoes and black pepper I feel a little better SUN is desperately trying to break through IT IS TRULY FREEZING I am not walking I am COLD!

My goal today is too make it too dinnertime without a NANA NAP!!!

Hope it is warmer where ever you are.

Ciao

GOOD GOD some women!!!

DO that at a beauty parlour IT TOOK 3 hours nearly inbetween drinking WELL her drinking me drinking bubbles and orange (Cause I had forgotten school had half day today) must REMEMBER to A: pick up SON, I had A COOKED BREKKIE delivered to BEAUTY therapists to help soak up the bubbles (I only had 2 glasses) my friend and the therapist we all shared THERAPIST only had half a glass.

Appointment was at 8.30am and went until 11am WAS VERY VERY NICE, the therapist knows us well and was lovely it always is warm in there and smells nice and YA sort of nod off I suppose (maybe that was the bubbles).... I am suitably relaxed and warm oh and my hands and feet feel nice MY face is all glowing so IT was lovely.


I didn't hear from Jason as such, I text him at like lunchtime Monday just to say "I hope you arrived safely , as I didnt hear from you, I know you were busy busy Sunday, hope you had a great sleep!" I get back "Sorry YEP arrived, and yip good sleep!!! Funny, he will be busy this week sorting change of Doctors and re registering into mental health system up there and WINZ etc all those things, so NO doubt I wont hear anything until weekend, EVEN funnier I havent heard from his sister in law (my suppossed friend WE KNEW each other LONG LONG before the Allen boys were EVER on the scene!) Oh well I know everyone has busy lives including me.


As always Tuesday is CROCKPOT DAY with meatballs (I am working late) and my neighbour (my friend) is watching Samuel until I get home( because of course now there is NO Jason here so ONLY 2 more weeks of late work !) YAY thank goodness.

Year 9 Term one performance reports came out and Samuel got 23 Excellent and 3 satisfactory (graphics which he isnt fussed on, PE which his Asthma impinges on, and COOKING (and all in the attitude column!) of all things!) HE WAS PISSED about the cooking one, BUT THRILLED with all other areas AND the Principal writes lovely comments so I am very pleased with his progress into college LIFE!!!PLEASE LONG MAY THAT CONTINUE!!! SO FAR son is doing Monday Karate, Tuesday Rugby Wed am DEBATING 7.30am then Wed arvo Badminton Thursday arvo Rugby and Friday Swimming HE IS LOOKING forward to Easter and school holidays!!!!! HE CERTAINLY deserves a break! Thursday is normally Karate but WHEN a grading is close or Takahashi is here he will opt back to Thurs karate trainings AS agreed to by the Rugby coach.

Today is murky and overcast, a humidish wind and THE RAIN well its hanging off at the moment.

Have just set my alarm on phone to JOG my memory to GET MY SON I sooooooooooo know I am going to forget!!!

Hope everyone is staying warm. WILL we MAKE IT TO END OF MARCH without heater!!!!!!

Ciao

Physically and emotionally WIPED OUT!

I walked yesterday after DINNER forced myself !!! BECAUSE this morning I FORCED myself to lie in until 8am!!! (I know not much of a lie in!)...

Jason was here EARLY with all his (which are actually mine) blankets and linen I have washed 6 woollen blankets and underblankets and mattress protectors and 2 sets of sheets of his (which are actually mine) AND GOT THE WHOLE DAM LOT DRY!!!! It is Windy and Sunny here so was a perfect day for it! I HAVE lay in the sun and apart from 8 loads of washing ( my machine takes king size blankets and queens perfectly), DONE NOTHING ELSE! I HAVE lounged around in my lava lava all day feeling totally drained (sleepy drained), AND although I know I have achieved alot this week I FEEL very tired today understandably. HAD resonable sleep, and know I wont get decent sleep for another few nights yet ( disturbed sleep at this time of month I hate that you are laying there all asleep and warm and WHAM hello GET UP NOW or face washing an entire bed lot of linen!!! this happened at 4am WAY before my usual stirring time and I slept on and off until 8am).

Am suitably ahead for this week and need to be AS NOW its all on me. (No differetn than before BUT now I know its ME and no one ELSE.

Jason and his Dad left Taupo at around 1.30pm, HIS MUM didnt come down, Oh well NO LOSS. They haven't text yet to say they have arrived I'm sure at some stage he will remember. The farewell I didn't linger for as IT is all too hard and I DONT want me upset and then Jason more upset, than he already is.

My friend is taking me to the day spa on Tuesday morning to SHOUT me a manicure, a pedicure and a facial NICE EH.... She says I need spoiling and I NEED to take a deep breath and step back.... (we are having BUBBLES TOO!) Easy for others to say these things harder for me to acknowledge. Lucky my teacher Aide work isn't in full swing yet as I may have missed the opportunity.

This Sunday has been warm and relaxing (to me it is relaxing).

I hope everyone else has been doing something nice for themselves.

Ciao.

A SUPER LONG WEEK

I have made it through to TODAY BUT ONLY JUST thats a bonus in my book, I have walked 10km TUES 15km WED 10km THURS 10km TO walk out some stress (one of those walks was at 8pm at night didnt get in until 9.45pm!!!)

I have cleared out a LARGE ROOM filled with (disorganised chaos) Jason's room where he stays YOU COULD NOT see any inch of floor OR BED or DRAWS it was truly heinous! EVERY surface was stacked high and ONE LARGE rubbish BAG went out, 22 BANANA BOXES of STACKED STUFF (just random things in it!) some boxes only HALF FULL!


TOOK 2 days to tidy and sort, I HELPED clear out AN ENTIRE med sized shed FULL OF CAR PARTS and motors and panels and bonnets, 3 trips to the DUMP later down to ONE TRAILOR LOAD that he listed on TRADEME and SOLD the same day (people have just picked it up!)..

I HELPED clear out AN ENTIRE WORK VAN packed to the hilt WITH tools and shyte that Jason hoards collects and WONT THROW away!! IT has taken us until TODAY to get on top of everything, I have worked EVERYDAY and even did 4 hours extra in between all of THAT!!! I have washed all his clothes AS THE PILES of clean and DIRTY was together SHIT I HATE THAT!!!!! BUT its done I have washed all his bedding and aired it so that his mother DOESNT COMPLAIN!!!! (although she has already SAID "why do we have to have him at our place" SHE is another I COULD QUITE happily PUNCH in the HEAD!!!

Jason has TRULY worked hard all week he vaccummed his place EDGES AND SKIRTINGS and dusted even (well brush attachment on vaccuum!(sp) ). He likes lists and crosses off what he does and NEEDS to be kept busy!

He is doing ok BUT its the wounded puppy dog looks and LOST puppy dog looks and THEN the animal caught in the HEADLIGHT LOOKS I cant handle (tugs at my heart strings) and the reassurance looks I get that I cant help with that DO MY HEAD IN, I have cried a few nights (one when I was walking) HEAVEN help anyone who came across me!

I have aching everything shoulders back arms FROM LIFTING and sorting and STRESS no doubt, I made sure I kept on top of all my own STUFF (housework and household) SO I WOULDN'T lose it completely, I AM TRULY POOPED today and didnt sleep in as WE had a CAR BOOT SALE school fundraiser up at 6.50am and there at 7.30am started 8am..........


Tonight for dinner I have crumbed chicken and roast VEGES I NEED COMFORT FOOD and I am having a spa AT MY FRIENDS (next door neighbour!) and watching RUGBY my favourite pastimes!

I have eaten REALLY well all week and even one DAY DIDNT EAT AT ALL (not good I know BUT boy I thought I would HURL at any portion of food that crossed my lips I DRANK WATER ALL DAY though!)

I am trying to stay cheery and upbeat BUT I KNOW I am emotional and I have been sick in the stomach for 2 days now like churny sick just like a few months ago or last month I cant remember (wake this morning AND HAVE my period so thats 2 cycles 16 days apart then this one was 39 days apart!! I am keeping track!)

I am going to lay in the sun this afternoon managed 2 days sunbathing as well inbetween everything going on, and I very well may read!!!!

I hope to have happier days ahead!

Ciao

Sometimes do you wish you could...

JUST jump off the Earth and stop!

My partner (well in the loose sense of the word we dont live together HELL we dont even SLEEP TOGETHER), is unwell again (Bipolar), and is heading away to family, WHY because I am in no position to physically support or financially support him thanks in PART to my rotten bitch of a mother, and thanks in part to HIS less than caring family WHOM continually bury their heads in the sand and LEAVE the caring to me!!! 9 YEARS I have struggled and valiantly tried to hold all of us together ... I lost that battle again today AND I JUST cant do it any more, it is sad to think THAT I feel I have failed not him, it doesn't register to him and I would never let on, BUT I do feel I could do more BUT WHAT....

5 YEARS AGO I packed up house lock stock n barrel after my father died at 54 it was ALWAYS SAID I would go home to CARE for my mother BEARING in mind she was only 57 (AND NOT UNWELL mentally or physically), so we sold up everything (imagine moving to a 70's house) where NONE OF MY modern furniture fitted the rooms I DOWNSIZED everything superking bed TO A QUEEN FFS!, none of my bedroom furniture fitted either ETC ETC ETC, we get there BUT NOO she decides the INVITATION doesnt include Jason my partner of 4 years! (we were engaged well still are in a loose sense! complicated I tell ya!) THE DEAL was we live there (my mother had a GRANNY flat built on with ensuite etc), we pay utilities and RATES and insurances THATS IT, potentially saving between $400 - $600 a week!!! BUT no 7 days before xmas of 2004 WE ARE GIVEN notice YOU MUST LEAVE the house (by way of lawyers letter!), JASON had had an episode and was in ROTORUA hospital for 6 weeks (mental health ward), my mother refused to watch Samuel while I went to see Jason (which was only on the weekends AS I WAS WORKING!) so HER intentions were very clear,we lived out of the back of my car me and my son for a few nights then I SLEPT on friends lounge floors and RUMPUS rooms until 8 weeks later we secured a house (imagine trying to rent in TAUPO right before xmas NEW YEAR!) thus ensues Jason's recovery hindered BY LACK of continuity in housing, we shifted 3 times in 8 weeks! WE move from a perfectly nice location to my mothers then had to store a household of furniture (remembering downsized AT a huge cost to me!) in a panelbeaters workshop!), then shift that out when we secured a place, WE (namely me ) I had at one time 4 jobs and worked 7 days a week IF YALL think I do too MUCH NOW ASK JAXX how much I WAS DOING!!!!!! 4 jobs and caring for my family AND MY PARENTS I nursed my DAD until he died.. and doing urgent WAIKATO hospital runs in the dead of night!

THE life and WORK I DO and how I live now IS A HOLIDAY compared to WHAT MY LIFE WAS!

My mother PROMISED me $25,000 BUT recanted when I rang and told her I had found a place Jason was back and THAT the money was to be put to good use as a COURIER RUN in which I could supply income for my family (and THEN JASON could come and go at my work with me AS HE WISHED) and become available which I had applied for PENDING the $ because she knew I HAD MOVED ON and would now be able to sustain our family ably SHE SOLD THE FAMILY HOME and threw all her toys out the cot and FUCKED OFF, I got $1,500 it cost me $900 to set up my new place SO I SAID thanks I managed to move AND BUY new tyres!! how generous of you. After the no money phone call I changed my cellphone and unlisted all my numbers (just recently a detective friend) found it EXTREMELY HARD to source info on me! Surprisingly I am well versed in COVERING my tracks.

MY mother has written me OUT of the family will and the living inheritance (THAT I AM entitled to CONTEST because of PROMISES made whilst my father was alive AND THE WHOLE family had agreed on this BUT I CHOOSE NOT TOO YES I HAD very good legal advice on this matter BUT IT WOULD take YEARS and as my sister was still alive WE my mum and her WERE ALL ENTITLED to a 1/3 share! A COSTLY affair and to leave HER WITH NOTHING WAS NEVER my intention) because although she feels leaving me with nothing suits her I CAN NOT bring myself TO LEAVE her with nothing I am younger and stronger! AND have proved I can survive (always have since when I first left home at 15!)

SO far I have paid $58,000 in RENT! and all the utilities and insurances SO I HAVE LOST big time and stepped away FROM my share of family $, (my choice!) BUT as my mother so eloquently put it SHE wont have HIM in the family fullstop! HAD we been in MY FAMILY HOME I would be in a financial position today WHERE it doesn't matter how OFTEN Jason falls off the radar WE would have money behind us to ALLOW him recovery time. I still to this day CAN NOT bring myself to DRIVE near or down MY FAMILIES STREET, I had lived there all my life 37 years!

I have supported both my sister and my mother through some horrendous times and WHEN I NEEDED support I was shown the door ! SO thats it for me YOU fuck me off IT cut off a tthe knees and THATS it thye drew the line in the sand !

MY FRIENDS (BAR one) whom I have many HAVE all fully supported Jason and I THROUGH EVERYTHING and without them I truly wouldn't have survived. Interestingly my mothers family have no contact with Smauel and I either and or my fathers parents SO thats how it is!

Jasons family just say oh well we would love to help BUT just cant!!! What sort of fucking response is that!! Soft cocks!!! sorry I get so damned angry, I know he will be there in part with his family BUT they treat him like the SMELLY OLD DRUNK UNCLE at the family wedding in the corner that no one wants to talk too!!!! It breaks my heart....... because of course YOU CAN CATCH MENTAL ILLNESS from living with people WHOM HAVE mental illnesses!!!!

I refuse to contact my mother, and her and my sister have not spoken to me in 6 years, I dont even know what country they are in I know its not NZ, so at least I cant beat the SHIT out of my sister WHICH is what I told her IF SHE EVER SETS FOOT back in TAUPO! Believe me there is a lot more to this AND I WILL never forgive them for the intentional hardship they placed me in!

AM I STILL ANGRY HELL YES! I am not in the forgiveness PLACE yet and quite possibly will never be THATS MY CHOICE (please no condescending or patrionising remarks!)

I have paid the ultimate price TO love and care FOR ANOTHER human being, and neither my family or his FIND IT in their hearts to have COMPASSION, I feel sad tonight and the familiar feelings of dread towards a terrible situation. I now have to help Jason stay WELL ENOUGH because his family (parents THEY ARE RETIRED! and no they aren't old he also has 3 younger brothers 2 of whom are in Te Puke as well) they aren't coming to get him until the weekend !! Last time he got really bad he was found NEAR WELLINGTON looking for directions TO KAWERAU (Whakatane WAY) ALOT can happen between now and THEN.

I AM offline until after the weekend WHEN I KNOW he will be in relatively safe hands.

SLEEP glorious SLEEP

I slept soundly from 10pm until 7.30am and lay in until 8.15am SO thats good for me, I have had me easter buns and yoghurt and cereal, WAITING for air temperature TO RAISEohhhhhhh about 20 DEGREES so I can lounge in the sun!!!!!!!!!!

Not as cold this morning BUT definately chilly nipply!

I need to clarify more on yesterday, THE DOG was bearing its teeth and snarling viciously in my opinion like hard out and I was VERY CONCERNED not frightened and when it lunged IF I HADNT kicked it IT WOULD HAVE got my lower leg NOW I DONT give a rats arse about PC bullshit IF A dog is going in for the "kill" then I have have EVERY REASON to defend myself and IF that involves exerting extreme force I WILL, I dont give a toss if its someones PET or domestic animal, I am not about to have my leg ripped open or BADLY bitten because its a SUPPOSEDLY nice dog (breed) TOO BAD!

And if I got fined I don't care either, so I will ring Dog Control on Monday and see what happens owners of dogs will always say Oh but there so friendly and THEY never do that, they are normally so well behaved WELL theres always a first time and I AINT gonna be it! KEEP your dogs under control and supervise, THATS dog owners responsibilities and job if they can't DONT have a dog simple!

We are currently watching a movie, then I am waiting for WARM air to lay in the sun in, AND I will read out there too! APART from that I have nothing else doing BLISS! Will probably go for a swim IF it ever heats up!! We are having homemade crumbed chicken drumsticks stirfry veges (cauli broc carrot onion beans cabbage courgette parsley to garnish) and homemade chunky dry roast potatoes for dinner I am going to make some savoury scones for lunch sweetcorn ham and cheese like a scroll type scone?. AND I might drag the BBQ out for I feel we need to have some more BBQ's as very soon IT WONT BE BBQ weather!!!!!!!

Have a super sunday whatever you are doing.

Ciao

HOLY HELL

After last nights wind WE AWOKE to A HUGE FROST and COLD AS CLANGERS! AND me the stupid ninny is out in it walking I thought I would comfortably do 7km and push on to 10km I ended up doing 12km AS IT WAS so crisp and cool I just kept going!!! PLEASED with that....

NOT PLEASED with someones MUTT COCKER SPANIEL who rushed me and aggressively growled then proceeded to rush in around behind me and lunged to bite ME DOG 0 ME 1 I KICKED it fair in the head and sent it packing THEN I hurled abuse at the owner and said KEEP YOUR MUTT contained It had left the property and come at me from down the road was in FULL run mode by the time it got to me I HAD STOPPED in my tracks and just stayed still not speaking or moving BUT BOY did it and the OWNER get there curry up, I said to her " I have been walking along here for over 5 months now AND IF I EVER have that dog come at me again I will KILL IT! AND there section isnt fenced SO I will be laying a complaint with Dog control, FURTHER around my walk (on my last lap) there was a staffy pitbull cross AND HE WAS HUGE I was a bit wary but he gave me no TROUBLE stupid eh I DID however ring the pound BECAUSE it was hanging around the park WHERE children were AND I ASKED the kids if it was there dog!

I have worked all day doing housework vaccuuming (everyone helped), some washing hung out ADN the rest of the time gardening and trimming and sweeping up, had to go and get the electric hedge trimmer IT WAS GRUNTY AS!!! I WANT ONE! and then deliver it back as I only had it on hire for a half day! I DID HEAPS WITH IT!!! yay (everyone helped out too), WE are having our favourite dinner A MIXED grill chops sausages chicken and tomato and onion and courgettes mixed with homemade wedges!!! SO IM off to help prepare dinner I am gonna shower and shave before bed !!! so I can slip into a clean BED SMELLING CLEAN instead of garden FRESH!!!!

Have done a minimal amount of ironing and WE are all sleeping in tomorrow YAY I have easter buns for brekkie and soy yoghurt! ($6.79 for a 4 pack) so its a treat!

Hope everyone had a good productive day!

Ciao

Friday down and its WINDY AS HELL.........

Yip worked all day cleaning at my FRIDAY JOB and had 20 mins breather before swimming and I stayed in CAR, and had a nana nap!!!! worked brilliantly 40 mins of kip and I was alright, I am however yawning as I type this AND heading towards me bed SOON after I finish this post.

Had lovely cottage pie with mashed potatoe on top and NO CHEESE on my 1/5 of pie!! with Tomato and onion crusty bread (the others had that!), a chocolate log with sliced peaches and cream (none for me!) it was REALLY NICE and welcome as tonight is blustery and cold and bllllluuurrrrkkkkkkkk..

Tomorrow some Easy Peasy walking just 10km and some EASY PEASY shrub trimming with AN ELECTRIC hedge trimmer WOOOOOO HOOOOOO I am so looking forward to that! and thats it I have washing done ONLY 1 load and it will go out tomorrow I HAVE NO IRONING nad we are having A BBQ toomorrow night and thats IT!!

Hope everyone has a good weekend .

Ciao

Thursday down and where did it go too!

I have worked all day 3 loads washing to start with CLEANING an entire van and car out OF BUILDERS tools and materials and boxes and PARAPHENALIA (what a shyte of a job that was), worked this morning and then back again this afternoon I AM OFFICIALLY knackered and I have a 7hr day of work tomorrow THANK GOD I washed all our sheets today and did some housework (not much though!)...

I am truly wiped out walking again early this morning probably didn't help either although only a 5km walk, TOMORROW after work I have swimming lessons(son), then home james and FEET UP I PROMISE!!!!!

Will walk again Saturday a much longer walk probably push out a 10km and see how it feels and how I HOLD UP!

REST DAY SUNDAY I SWEAR!

Ciao

A leisurely walk....

I managed a walk this morning just 5km and it was nice just to stretch legs out a bit tight up top but ok!!, NO SUNBATHING yesterday but got osme sunbathing in today! I went to my friends yesterday and helped them clean 2 x people 2.5hr ONE ROOM head down arse up and WE shifted a huge amount and tidied and vaccuumed and WELL ITS DONE thank god!

Samuel has had some more exciting news he made Captain debating team (at school) he was thrilled, and was voted Student Councillor for Year 9 students along with another boy and 2 other girls SO thats out of 193 students! COOL.....

Am heading off to work soon and will walk again tomorrow I walked into town this morning my friend picked me up when I got there and we had coffee! (I have trim Soy latte DECAF!!!) and its nice I always had trim decaf, NOW just soy. AND she remarked since I have stopped the whole dairy thing I DONT need to go to the toilet WHEN WE are in TOWN, we would always manage to get ONE JOB done and I WOULD be like OH I need to go to the toilet! I lasted from 7.30am this morning until 1pm before I needed to go (thats including no 1's as well!) AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DONT KNOW WHY I didnt look into it before OH well!

Hope everyone is doing something nice.

Ciao

Didn't get to lie in..........

but have done all my "incidental" jobs for the week and am currently home ready to sunbathe and read and already have dinner in the crockpot MIGHT later after sunbathing ADD SOME PHOTOS!! Feeling better today and am itching to walk SO with the prospect of RAIN coming I am heading out for a walk tomorrow morning and will help a friend MAJOR clean a room out SO THAT will be all good exercise EH!

Typical I am at the computer in my togs already and its clouding over was sunny all whilst I was in town and warming up!

OHHHHHHH forogt to say on the Sunday morning as we were the first ones up at the LODGE we even beat the owners up!!!! WE was having our brekkie and A BIG FAT MUMMY pukeko came up the steps with straw and grass in her beak and poked her head in the door IT WAS SOOOOOO COOL and then when she waddled off her BIG FAT PLUMP white bottom tail feathers looked soooooooo funny!!!! and their gangly legs it was amazing to see so up close inquistive things they are.

WELL I may be sun shivering in a moment!

Have an awesome day.

Ciao

WELL MONDAY!

I am a bit flat today and sore, not ouchy sore but achey sore!

Had a resonable sleep BUT didn't want to get up! Have been to work SQUEEZED IN most of my grocery shopping and am now heading back to work.

WILL walk 6km on Thursday morning and see how I feel and then do a 10km probably Sat and into it again.

FORGOT to say the friend I saw was an ex lover, a married man at the time as it so happened. HE had lap band surgery and went from 260kg down to 130kg he looks amazing BUT he was always a handsome bugger even at 260kg, I was so proud of him I HUGGED him a bit more enthusiasticly(sp) than I probably should have!!! lol we have known each other for 15 years and he IS certainly a handy person to have around and IS A GO TO GET IT DONE GUY!! (security and REPO work) and boy YOU dont want to mess with him thats for sure!


GOD I am brain fried today I feel zombie ish!

OH well back to work and then home to cook and DO some IRONING and then I am going to TRY HARD to stay awake for MY PROGRAMMES tonight!!! bet I dont waaaaaaaaaa MIGHT just pull lounge bed out and watch programmes lying down BUT THEN I WILL NOD off and MISS THE WHOLE DAM THING!

I might even get a sleep in tomorrow (whispers that quietly and tries not to put it out in the universe so SOME bugger cant muck it up!).

Have a great afternoon .

Ciao

Whoop Whoop...........

Samuel got to go up a DAN and was thrilled by that BUT the boy whose place might have been available has been cleared to stay in NZ TEAM so is competing!! IT was nice away and GOOD for Samuel to go hard out and he enjoyed it SO THATS ALL that matters!!!

A LONG weekend driving sitting on me BUM!!!!!!! and at the Karate VENUE...

OH AND WALKING ME SLATS OFF Whanganui had the Relay for Life walkers down there ( for cancer supporters and survivors!), I JOINED IN!!!!!!!!


I WALKED 21.2km in 3hr 40mins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOP WHOOP I started at 1pm and finished at 4.40pm WHILST the karate guys were training I was walking me little buns off !( AND IT WAS FARKN HOT AS!) they started at 1pm and finished 5pm (warm up and warm down included!) so it was perfect ONE of the other mothers from Taupo was LIKE GOOD GOD woman thats committment for ya!

Journey down 2hrs 45 mins (had to negotiate TOWN TRAFFIC for IRONMAN START!!!!!!), arrived 9.15am SO WELL ahead of time BUT GOOD as we rested stretched and had time to regather thoughts etc. (managed to get ventolin OFF another person down there!) LYNISE yes I would love to take you up on that offer (but WOULD it be POSTABLE?), oh well lets see. Because he has spares at SCHOOL permanently and like you should have spares at A: where I work etc and car, I REMEMBERED I had loaned out 2 ventolin 1 each on different occassions to a girlfriend of mine and REMINDED her they needed replacing!
Yesterday morning they went from 10am until 12 noon then had a break and did the 1pm to 5pm slot and by the time we had stopped at supermarket to get HOT CHOOK (half) I also got chippies for RUGBY sat night, diet coke and TIP TOP thick easter TOAST yummmmmmmmmm!!!

For dinner I made pasta and chicken with tom basil onion mushrooms pepper etc AND WE LOVED THE place we stayed at WAS DIVINE!!!!!!!!!!!

JESUS Whanganui PAK n SAVE has to have the CHEAPEST GROCERIES IN NZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! literally they were DIRT CHEAP I had already done a huge shop before I had left HAD I KNOWN I would have waited!!!!

After dinner we watched crusaders blues, then had a spa then HIT THE SACK we were BOTH MUNTED!!!!! my son rubbed cream into my tired legs and feet.

Up early 7am (on a sunday waaaa) had muesli for brekkie and then that divine toast, karate started 9am and finished 11.30am I HAD lunch with an old friend of mine and we headed home at 1pm WE HAVE unpacked I have washing on and BOY IT IS HOT, I am over driving and sitting and CANT wait for NAE NAE'S time!!!!!!!!

Having a BBQ for dinner ALL food is being cooked on it!!! (potatoe chunks and chicken nibbles and legs!)

WELL FOLKS I AM OFF to relax and have a Raspberry vodka RTD!!!!! (ps. I didnt drink down there!)

Ciao

KIDS ya just gotta love them!!!!!!

Sunbathe done PACKING done housework DONE, mowed lawns even, DINNER sorted!!!! DID SOME IRONING, put more washing on its 9pm SON informs me HE IS LOW ON VENTOLIN !!!!!!!!!!

AND IM LIKE WTF!!!! we are leaving 6am in the morning to meet with someone in Turangi whom is gonna drive us over the PARAS as they are heading down too so we are following them, AND WHERE AM I GONNA GET spare ventolin !!!!!!!!!

Asthmatics and heart patients CAN GET emergency supplies at other pharmacies BUT BOY IT IS HARD!!!!!!!!! I may not yet be able to source any WE HAVE HIS nebuliser and the Asthilan nebules BUT geez LOUISE that farks me off at TIMES!!!!!!

IM not the one whom takes it and YET IM MEANT TO FARKIN know when it is running out!!!!!

HE my son has done this once before AND BOY DID I TELL HIM OFF about it, I DIDNT THIS TIME because I DONT want to send him too bed upset and ME YELLING because I cant do anything about it now!!!!!!!!!

See yall on the Sunday....

OHHHHHHH and resorted to googling motels hotels and backpackers THE ANNIDON first on list RUNG THEM and VOILA we have secured somewhere to stay!!! THANKS Janene for thinking of us MOST APPRECIATED! BUT I had rung 6 others RANDOMLY before giving up and thinking WELL I WILL just wing it!!!!

The Auckland and Wellington Karate members got billeted out as they travel the furtherest, and OUR sensei was meant to ring up for us he tried two nights through the week and couldnt get the people so we missed out never mind at least he tried!!!!

SHIT at this rate I MAY JUST DRINK!!!!!!!! whilst IM DOWN THERE!!!!!!!!!!!

OHHHH and seen as the WALK FOR LIFE RELAY is down there I am gonna walk my 12km down there with all the other mad people!!!!!!! I have packed my walking gear and shoes and HAT and walking belt etc!!!!! WILL post back how I did!

Ciao

Have survived to the end of the WEEK

BUT ONLY just!!!!!!

Finished my work I did 17 hours in first 2 days this week alone!!!!!! I only normally work 25hrs ish! finished up week of 35hrs! NOT cutey...

I have washed all the sheets and there out drying as I type! I am currently wanting to throw some lunch down TO the ABYSS of my tummy!

I AM SUNBATHING!
I HAVE TO PACK!
I HAVE TO GET TO SCHOOL to get child TO SWIMMING!!!!
WE HAVE TO brave traffic which is TRULY HEINOUS! I HAVE however made the beds thats a start and done the kitchen and bathroom etc, left to do is pack and sunbathe NOT too stressful! and then vaccum I HATE coming home to a messy house! AND IT WILL BE a very long weekend.

FINDING somewhere to STAY IS BECOMING A STRESS though!, oh well WE WILL just wing it and HOPE like hell we find somewhere! Lol I could easily sleep in the car BUT Samuel needs leg room and will need a DECENT SLEEP, I DONT HAVE DIRECTIONS to DOJO YET!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT TIME it starts!!!!!!!!! (sometimes the geriatric of a SENSEI is A: forgetful B: SENILE sheesh.... ALL I know we need to be on the ROAD at 5am AT THE LATEST! OUR sensei hadn't been able to contact the SENIOR member of the Whanganui dojo to see if WE can stay there SO I am winging IT !!!!!

COULD be an interesting weekend!

***** UPDATED*****

Directions delivered ok, starts 10.30am BECAUSE Wellington and Auckland members coming too SAT finishes 2.30pm so thats 4 hours training then Sunday 9am until 12 noon SO thats not bad BUT its intensive HARD YAKKA, better find a place to stay BECAUSE Whanganui has relay for life ON that weekend AT THE SCHOOL where the Karate is being held !!!!!!! NOOOOIIIIIIICCCCCEEEE...... I had better find somewhere or IT could be interesting! to say the least.

Got a walk in yesterday and AM walking tonight after dinner and WHEN IT COOLS down! I am doing a 10km walk tonight, as I arent doing any down in Whanganui!

RIGHT ohhhhhh another job PAINT MY TOENAILS RED thats first then make some LUNCH!! then sunbathe then pack then school then rest of housework!!! WE are having Tacos for dinenr and Samuel is having STUFFED potatoes to BULK up carbs! and pasta on the side HE was feeling good last night so THATS a bounus all the protein cookies and the fluid replacement drinks must be working!

Everyone have a glorious weekend.

Ciao

Great gadsby.......

TOWN is hectic IRONMAN fever is in full SWING!!!!


What not to do go walking into town AS ALL THESE athletic bronzed buff bods ROCK PAST ME at a hundred miles per hour!!!!

Walked into town early met a friend in there walked 9km 5km around my place and then the last stretch through into town and around our beautiful boat harbour and lakefront!

HAVE one very tuckered boy he is CURRENTLY at school but have fed him up on PASTA and chicken last night, left overs this morning and PACKED a protein filled carby lunch! with BUCKET LOADS of fresh fruit and ICE COLD WATER.....

He is looking forward to Whanganui trip, he had 2 masters (from Japan) comment on his technique and stances last night "very good" so fingers crossed he is JUST so determined and focussed HE DESERVES to go far this year and he is certainly up there !!!

Sunbathed already now into the rest of my day!

GLORIOUS WEATHER HERE hope it lasts!

Enjoy yourselves today!

Ciao

Walk done AND boy was it

like lumping lead legs around this morning I FINISHED work at 10pm!!!!!!! waaaaaaaa I was had it by then, legs tired, eyes tired, body generally tired!!!

Up at 6.30am this morning to GET his nibs to school for 7.30am DEBATING and Zenith speech group THEY are learning the Parliamentary formats and ACTUALLY visit parliament end of year so he is DEAD KEEN on that! Walked after seeing that teacher so I can fit everything into my day.

Arrived school waited to see rugby coach, as there is rugby meeting and practice run JUST friendly after school just needed to point out he will be leaving at 4pm , Samuel had debating this morning he has swimming at school, then rugby after completing a full days school work, then at 4pm is being picked up from school to head down to Turangi for the first of 4 days training for karate! (and including last night 5 nights!!).

FORGOT to say I have NEW protein cookies APPLE SPICE CRUMBLE and shit they are so nice I think I could live on them THE double chocolate fudge brownie was only 48gms and we didn't like that one!, the ginger spice is 65gms and is very nice, BUT the APPLE crumble one is 83gms!!!!!! AND a BIG COOKIE TOO!and has apple sultanas AND IS SOOO NICE Samuel and I love them!!!!! I get them through my employer (she and her business partner have an elite gym going in Taupo appointment only and one on one training only, they are $36 a box of 12 ) we have half a cookie after exercise and Samuel has half after walking to my work and then half straight after Karate! I have half after each "smaller" walk but a WHOLE cookie after 14km + walks!

Will walk again tomorrow and do a night walk on Friday just 10km and then DO my 21km next WED probably or THURS!! and thats it for me I will go back to just 10km walks 3 x a week, and save the longer walks for the weekend NOW that more work beckons....

Last night I heard from a friend that one of our mutual friends MUM had passed away on Sunday so I am off to the funeral well to hopefully see her before the service and pay my respects and then head into service but sit near the back so I can head away as I am working, mother was only 57 and was sudden, they are such a nice family I was shocked to hear the news.

On that note I had better A: wash my hair B: get some fruit C: hang out washing D: head into town E: remember to put nice clothes in CAR!

I hope everyone remembers today THERE ARE people outside of your own families who DO CARE.

Ciao

Walk done and A VERY quick walk almost...

a HALF GEISHA run!!! Was DARK though to start with sheesh.

Now into shower and grocery shopping before work which is up and down as young fella still off school and appointments abound for parents SO I AM IT, a disjointed day is just what I dont need!

Darn it all, bit cooler this morning NOT frost cold but overcastish, yesterday cold morning and STINKIN hot day, gawd ya can't win at the moment.

Have a moderate start to my day then it gets crazy WORKING quite late until 9pm so its another long day.

PERHAPS in Whanganui on the weekend instead of walking I will rest and snooze inbetween watching training!

Right onward! Have a good day.

Ciao

WHERE has today gone?

The family I work for their young fella has had an awful accident FELL down wooden stairs and split lip, pushed 2 front teeth through LIP and busted teeth, PARENTS FULL DAY Livestock Sale(animals) ME stuck with very sore little man !! from 8am until 6pm!!!!!!!! A long day I have come home WHIPPED up a very quick dinner, homemade meatballs and a stirfry vege base cabbage, onion, mushroom, capsicum, carrot, beans, broccoli, cauli!!!! with oyster sauce IT WAS divine!!!!!

But instead of eating mine I went for a quick walk (6Km) while Son ate as we have a huge WEEK Karate tonight, WED night THURS nite then a 2 day NZ SQUAD TRAINING in Whanganui.... HE and I will be well and truly poked BY MONDAY!!!!!!!

And I just know I wont get any decent walking in!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow morning a 10km walk AND WED morning a 10km walk and THURS morning a 10km walk CAUSE Friday I am working ALL DAY Saturday we are leaving to travel to Whanganui at 5am in the morning WE NEED TO BE there at no later than 8.35am!!!!!!!!!! Our karate instructor is trying to get us some place to stay in Whanganui BUT as it was a RUSHED decision we might not be able to stay with any of the Whanganui DOJO members, Wellington people have to come up and Palmerston North people will be travelling over etc!!! SO a SAT SUN walk is out of the question I will be working FLAT OUT ALL week too!!!!!!! MAYBE a stroll in Whanganui to clear my head might do me some good!!!!!!!

OHHHHHHHHH big gloat moment Samuel got TOP year 9 MARK in his school for english 99/100 IN his PAT test, and 98% in Science, and 98% in Social Studies, 2nd in Year 9 Maths HE IS STOKED I AM SUPER PROUD!!!!!!!!!!! yay yay yay.........

I am off to watch my programme "Brothers and Sisiters"

I hope everyone had a lovely day.

Ciao